how many times do i have to?

It’s like a never ending cycle.

I don't know how many times I have written posts like the ones that I am going to write tonight.

I am going to complain about how busy i am with work and stuff that i don't have enough time to spend writing stuff that people want to read on this blog.

I am going to bitch about all the little things that do nothing to improve the condition; sometimes it makes it worse because nothing beneficial comes out of 'just small talk'.

I know I won't remember today's post as anything special or something I should consider as an accomplishment in my ever quest to improve my writing.

My mind is numb from work, I am tired and although there are thousands of interesting things that happened in my life in the past weeks, I really don’t see the benefits of sharing it here.

I have to write all this useless stuff, although I could spend the little time I have left reading e-books that teaches me how to be a better person in many aspects of the human society we all try to excel in.

I have come to the point of clear realization that the less time I spend writing about life, the more I’d appreciate all the great things, the little details that make life rich, beautiful and valuable.

Knowing that you won’t be recording a specific beautiful experience makes it more valuable; you’d try your best to suck it all in all its greatness while it is still warm.

While you still can.

No digital memories.

Just being human like how we are supposed to be.

Anyways, today as I was walking to my room, the Filipino prostitute who just got back from his Chinese customer’s room, smiled at me when I walk pass her.

I swear there is semen on her face.

I will not watch porn tonight.

I promise.

no overtime today

it felt like a dream.

i don't have to do overtime today!

so i'm going to use the little time i have to talk about things that people like to read.

so i was in the lab, preparing to do some experiments.

some people might hate spending time in the lab because the place smells thick of seriousness and nothing more but work.

but i kinda like spending time in the lab.

because the people stationed in the lab is quite a unique fun bunch.

today i am going to introduce 2.

first one is the outsourced 'hentai ikemen'.

hentai means pervert and ikemen means 'hot guy'.

the hentai ikemen has a reputation of being the most 'ikemen' in our company.

but he is a dirty pervert, indescribable with mere words.

then there is the high school graduate 'kawai panic baka'.

she gets excited with everything, full of curiosity and basically... a little stupid.

but she's lovable because she's a very cute kid.

both were stationed in the lab to help out with experiments and measurements.

i don't know how it started, but me and the hentai ikemen were talking about breasts.

talking about breasts at work might be taboo in some cultures, but japan's just cool like that.

from talking about any breasts, then we started to discuss about kawaii panic baka's breasts.

hentai ikemen: your breasts must be small.
kawaii panic baka: that's an awful thing to say!
me: don't worry. you're just 19 years old. still got time to grow some.

kawaii panic baka: mine's not bad, really. look!
hentai ikemen: ali's breasts are bigger hahaha.
me: hahaha. don't listen to hentai ikemen. you'll be fine.

hentai ikemen: don't forget to drink your daily milk!
kawaii panic baka: i might be small now, but recently my breasts has been growing fast that sometimes it felt like it's going to pop-out of my bra!
me: ............. errr that might be too much information to process LOLs.

this is why lab is fun.

at least i have found a place to release stress.

i love breasts.

new discoveries

one of my co-workers got lucky yesterday.

he lives on the upper floors of the same apartment that i currently resides.

it was around 10 at night, and when he looked outside his window, he noticed that the resident living in this other apartment located just across the road, forgot to curtain-up her windows.

all men were born with curious eyes.

then he could see the girl in her room came out from the showers, and only after she finishes to blow her hair and changed clothes that she realized that her window was open for my lucky co-worker's visual enjoyment.

this is not the reason why i'm writing this.

i'm writing this because just now i was informed that the apartment that i mentioned above was actually a female dormitory for aoyama gakuin university students!

and i could see them hanging their camisoles and stockings from my window!

oh man, even the thought of this gives me mid-night boners.

LOL.

hahaha anyways, i was inspired to write about this after i read one mind-opening article by one of my ex-schoolmates. it's about taking a step back to look at the world in a wider view point.

i should also sometimes take a step back, and appreciate my nearest surroundings first before searching for interesting things in far away places.

the majority of people reading this would think that this is nothing more than creepy perverseness, but i think it's just harmless little sweetness of living in a city where apartments are located very close to each other.

i'm going to pay more attention towards my windows now.

;)

Japanese Salaryman Life pt.2

Continuing from Part 1.

Every morning I usually woke up at 5:50 a.m.

After letting some sun light into the room, I would rush to the bathroom to take my daily morning shower.

Scrubby me here and there.

After some simple breakfast, I would put on my suit with matching neckties and long sleeved shirts, and get ready to get out of the apartment at exactly 6:50 a.m.; so that I could join my co-workers to go to work together.

Yes, I went to work with my co-workers every morning! What team spirit eh?

Anyways, our means of transportation to go to work is the famous Japanese densha system. Famous for what?

Morning rush hours and suicides of course!

*Densha (電車) means (public) train.

In all seriousness though, work-commuting by train in big Japanese cities (in my situation, Yokohama) is pure pain, and such an energy drowning experience.

There was just too many people during the morning rush hours, and not enough trains to accommodate them; causing extreme over-crowding especially from 7:30am to 9:00am.

In Malaysia, if a train was crowded with people, you would simply wait for the next train and board the less crowded one.

In Japan, even if you wait for the next train, the situation would be the same; the next train is also going to be extremely over-crowded, and you don’t want to be late to work, so you just board the train, NO MATTER how crowded it is.

Some of you might think, well a crowded train might not be so bad?

I want you to watch the video below, and you’d understand why I hate the morning rush hours that I have to endure each day going to work.

Basically this is the kind of trains that I have to board every morning, minus 10 people, maybe.

I got squished, pushed, sandwiched, pressed, feet stomped on and some more.

What makes it worse is that the majority of the Japanese salaryman here don’t believe in morning showers. Damn some of them do stink!

And I have to endure all if this for an hour every morning; what a great way to start work!

It does not happen very often, but sometimes there are people who choose to use the train, not to go to work, but to kill themselves; and we morning train commuters hate them to the bones!

Not only they delayed and decrease the available train, they also made such a mess on the platform. The number of passengers would drastically increase two, three folds when this happens, and it caused such human-traffic congestion inside the station.

So please to those who wants to kill themselves, please do it without causing other people trouble, especially when we all are rushing to go to work!

Kill yourselves in a hole that you dug by yourself in the comfort of your own lawn, please! O wait a minute, not many people in Japan has lawns!

Anyways, with so much human density in such a small space, it was inevitable that this would happen: CHIKAN.

*chikan (痴漢) means molestation, in this context, molesting female commuters in the densha. Normally this would consist of an old Japanese salaryman, rubbing his penis against the lady in front of him, or using his hands to grab and have a ‘feel’ on any available female’s ass inside the crowded train.

I pity the Japanese girls that they’re living in a land full of perverts.

I’ve seen it with my own eyes, and in such crowded situation, it would be hard to know whose hand it is that was grabbing that OL’s ass.

*OL = short for ‘office lady’.

What I don’t understand is that most of the victims stayed silent and still, their faces facing down, like nothing wrong happened. Maybe they’re just too ashamed to make a scene and report it to the police.

Maybe they thought, if I just endure this, I might get to work on time!

But because such chikan perverts exists, I’m always cautious in making sure that I won’t be mistakenly accused of doing such acts.

Now, that’s another whole story…

Enough with train suicides and train molesters… all of this makes me dull.

Anyways, I should be glad that starting from tomorrow, I won’t be using the train anymore because I got sent to further my training in Sagamihara, which is just a 20 minutes walk from my apartment!

Although this only lasts for 3 weeks, I’m looking forward to a new scenery; no more crowdedness, no more suicidal nuisances, no more salaryman perverts grabbing high school girl’s asses.

Three weeks of awesomeness!

[note: the extreme 'crowdiness' situation only applies during morning rush hours. using the train to get home from work in the evening is often quite relaxed; sometimes i could even sit down on the seats!]

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msaj jobfair ===>

going to tokyo today for a job-fair (they call it career fair) held by the malaysian student accociation japan (msaj). almost all of the participating companies have their own branches in malaysia, and the main purpose of the fair is to give employers the opportunity to recruit fresh graduates to work at their malaysian branches.

it is all about getting malaysian fresh gradutes from japanese universities into their malaysian branches.

i want to work in japan first, so i shouldn't be interested in such a focused career-fair but i want to go there anyways as a　滑り止め (suberi dome - last resort); meaning if by any chance, i didn't get a job from a japanese company based in japan, i'd go for the malaysian branches.

and because this is a last-resort thingy, i really don't have the spirit to be fully prepared. i didn't do much research about any of the participating companies, my resume looks like crap, i got a sore throat after some hardcore karaoke-ing and i didn't practice on any IQ or SPI tests. i just got back from a long date-marathon and i'm still not finished packing my bags for the trip yet; now where the heck did i put that polka-dot boxer?

i'm feeling kinda worthless and disappointed by my own laziness right now, but i just couldn't start to straighten up and be on my best; i'm feeling extreme だるい (darui - feeling of sluggishness).

自分がやる気なければ、会社の人も真剣にお前のことを見ない。覚悟しとけ。就職活動をなめんな！

anyways, to change the subject, video game reviewers all over the world is giving out 10s and 5 stars to the latest gta instalment: grand theft auto IV; and reading and watching all those videos makes me want to play the game so bad!

wanna play the game so bad that even if i were to choose from a simple camisole-wearing [insert you favourite hottie's name here] and the game, i'd choose the game. even if she rips off the camisole, revealing her red slik panties, i'd choose the game. even if she puts some oil on those skins and let me take her pictures with the state of the art slr camera, i'd choose the game. even if she offered to play with my balls while i'm micro-photograping her skin texture, i'd choose the game. even if.... what ever pervertness that a sick, disgusting, perverted mind could think of, i'd choose the game. do you see how powerful the hype of the game is?

look! i haven't even played the game yet but it has already affected me in a good way; that is it has made me want to choose the option that is not perverted instead of the perverted ones! wow what an awesome game! i could image myself being more pious, well mannered and more polite when i got the game. it must be!

have undies, the otakus will follow

Every Sunday, the street of akihabara is closed to vehicles to allow pedestrians the much needed breathing space to fully enjoy shopping and sight seeing in the famous ‘Electric Town’ of Tokyo. The empty space provided also gave certain people certain opportunities: cosplayers to show-off their latest anime costumes, wanna-be singers to promote their self-fund cds, street performers to show-off their skills, café attendants dressed in French maid costume to promote their café, and also gravure idols to show some skin for the sake of promoting their latest work.

And no gravure idol is as crazy as asuka sawamoto (沢本あすか), who has caused quite a stir in the otaku community when she went to the street, lift up her skirt and let hundreds of perverts took pictures of her undies. After the her outrageous 'performance', she climbed down the railings to give out flyers to promote her next gig.

Apparently, these perverts were called 'low-anglers' (ローアングラー), because they only took pictures from low angles; and it's the latest 'trend' in akihabara among fans of japanese 'small-time' idols. And all of this happened on a public road, and can be seen by everyone including children passing by.

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What a way to enflame a discussion about how far could freedom of expression and morality go along. Every time she did this, hundreds of low-anglers would flood the streets and with their mobile phones and some, expensive SLR cameras, took pictures of her in ‘funny’ positions and angles.

This being Japan, the police did nothing (because the police are also perverts); well at least until a tv program made a story about it. Eventually, she got caught and charged with public disturbance (迷惑防止条例違反) and to the dismay of her ‘fans’, it was revealed that she was actually 31 years old, 10 years older than what she told the press.

So now the underground Japanese bbs were filled with otaku jokes about how stupid they are, chasing a slutty obasan around with their mobile phones. More pics here .<--- click the link for a more detailed story (japanese).

Talking about such pervertness is always fun, but this time, it’s so over the top that I can’t even make one joke. Sometimes, akihabara is just too much. Remember, she was caught not because of her shameless performance, but of what she had encouraged: that is making huge crowds that disturbed other pedestrian and the flow of traffic.

Man, what a crazy place. Akihabara, enough is enough!

snowboarding is pain

I woke up this morning feeling excruciating pain all over my body. Each time I made a simple movement, it hurts. Every time I tried to lift up my arms, it hurts. A small lump of pain appeared of the left side of my throat and my shoulders are stiff as a board.

But I’m not going to talk about today. I’m going to talk about what I did yesterday.

Yesterday, I went snowboarding with pojik and zarul. The last time I snowboard is one year ago, so I have to be mentally prepared to fall a lot because I know I’m not going to remember what I have learnt before about snowboarding during my previous attempts at it. And fall, I did. A lot. And I guess although my mental side is ready, the physical side of me is not.

I snowboard like only 2-3 times a year so there is no way that I’m going to be good at it.

I sucked! Of course the main reason of this is because I don’t snowboard that much to obtain the required skills to be called ‘good at it’, but until now, I didn’t realize that I was THIS bad. If my memories were clear as the blue sky at the Juenese Ski Park yesterday, I thought I didn’t suck. Far from good of course, but definitely not on the level of suck; that was my previous assumption about my own snowboarding skills. Oh how wrong I was.

Getting your body slammed several times to the ground at high speed is painful enough, but nothing can be compared to when getting your dick squeezed between you body and a slump of hard snow, at high speed with full momentum from the fall.

I was so unfortunate yesterday. I was speeding on a steep slope. Feeling the cold breeze at this speed is fun and awesome! Then after realizing that if I don’t slow down, I’m going to lose control and hit a deer or something, I tried to do a cool, fast break; like the pros do it on tv. I forgot. I still suck at the sport. Lost balance and I got my body slammed to the ground very hard. And by some divine magic, during those crucial milliseconds of my mishap, I have succeeded to get my dick placed right on top of a slump of hard snow; and I let the momentum and speed of my body to slam my poor wang. Or shlong. Or weiner. Or pecker. Or knob. Or rod. Or shaft. Or phallus. Let’s just called it a male genitalia ok?

I must say. It was fucking painful. Damn!

I want to put my hand into my pants to make sure that everything is attached but I can’t really move because it was painful. So I just sit there, rubbing my little brother from the outside of my pants. I looked up and there comes a girl skiing down, staring at a foreigner who was rubbing his crotch like crazy. No matter how much you stare, you won’t understand the pain o little girl!

Then a sudden fear comes into play. What if it was squashed during impact? What if it was bleeding? I don’t want to have to say to my future wife this: before I ask to marry you, I have a secret to tell --> my dick is squashed and looks like a flatten banana balloon because I slammed it onto a slump of hard snow.

So I have to check whether the smaller (not the best word to describe it) part of me is functional and 100% OK. During these times of emergency, I wish I had a catalogue of women’s lingerie with pretty models in it to help me. Unfortunately, I don’t have those so I have to use my imagination. I used my extraordinary imagination to visualize all sorts of things that could turn that little guy into HULK, but all was in vain.

I was really freaking out; and then I remembered the time when I was just 8 years old at school. We had an English class in the library and the teacher (a pretty chinese-kelantanese young lady) told us to draw some pictures of animals. After giving her orders, we started our assignments on the floor while the teacher returns to the observing desk. I was sitting right in front of the teacher’s desk and to my horror, or joy, the pretty teacher sits on her chair with her legs opened, not knowing that the whole class could see her crotch clearly. To top it off, she’s not wearing anything underneath those silky white skirts so I could see clearly her unshaven secondary women lips(it's not a short skirt really, just on the knee line). I called my friend and ask him what the hell am I looking at, but he just told me to shut up so I continued to draw, while being very confused. At that time, I thought she had a horrible accident during circumcision, and I was pretty shaken by that thought. Damn, I should have looked a little bit longer because it would take years and years more before I get to see that again at this close range. Shaven.

After that brief moment of my fabulous history being brought back into my world of imagination, at last I got confirmation that the little guy is beginning to get angry and could turn into a full, bigger and harder than a rock HULK the green beast. I was so relieved. So after knowing that my banana and his two coconuts are okay, I continue snowboarding until its 3 p.m.

Before leaving, I had a shrimp burger and the sweet thing about this is that when I bought the coupons, I put 500 yen into the machine and it gave me back 710 yen! I’m so lucky. Then we brave the cold waters to take wudhu and performed solat in the changing room.

On the way back home, the three of us made some pretty weird conversations and had vowed to not speak the contents of the conversations to anyone else, so it was kinda cool. Then we hit the local sushi restaurant, and I ate like 5 plates only because I was just too tired to eat more.

Got back home, and went to sleep. Then I wake up this morning feeling like a train wreck. Then I did the laundry and watched appleseed ex machine; which is awesome. Then, because I have nothing else to do, I thought it would be fun to write about what I did yesterday, so here I am finishing my thoughts about that. Until next time....

*p/s: by reading today’s post, now you know that my childhood experience kinda affected my current state of mind a little bit. Might be funny, but not a pretty thang!

Edison Chen: You’re My Hero !!!

This might be an old story but I have just found out about the Edison Chen sex photo scandal!!! Yeah Edison Chen from my favourite Hong Kong police movie Infernal Affairs! What an awesome scandal this one is, and it might be the biggest one in asia right now!

Chen was involved in a sex scandal in January 2008, when hundreds of racy photographs, reportedly stolen from his laptop while it was sent out for repair at a computer shop, became widely circulated on the Internet. Many of the photos featured explicit nudity, and included images of himself as well as several high-profile female celebrities from the Hong Kong entertainment industry.

Just think about it, do you know anyone else who had fucked as many celebrities as Chen? Edison Chen has become a living legend for sure. He fucked, anally abused and received countless blowjobs from many celebrities, and pictures of 14 of those ‘lucky’ celebrities sucking his dick and licking his balls ended up on hong kong internet forums. He even fucked Cecilia Cheung, who is extremely hot and has quite a talent in acting (see Lost In Time and The King of Comedy).

It was a bummer though that he had decided to step away from the entertainment industry to do voluntary and social work instead. Instead of fucking hong kong celebrities, he choose to fuck volunteer and social workers instead… I really don’t understand this guy.

If you want to see the picture yourself, it can be easily be found on hong kong torrent sites; but be warned, it’s very sexually explicit: lots of dick sucking and celebrities with unshaven pussy posing in front of Chen’s camera and… you got the point.

Ok to the lazy people, you can download the torrent here:

http://isohunt.com/torrents/?ihq=edison+chen&ts

*p/s:

1) if you live in china though, it is best that you don't download the files because there has been cases of random people being arrested just because they have the images in their hard drive. so be careful !

2) the picture above is cecilia cheung, in a police woman cosplay! damn those hong kong celebrities know how to party! of course the picture was taken by Chen. Lots of other pictures that are more 'revealing' than this one; that is my assurance!

snow storm !!!

i was walking back from school today and it was snowing with very strong wind; it's very scary; and exciting too. exciting because the wind was blowing so hard, it swept girls skirts up and i could see their panties. i know, a normal human being couldn't see a thing when it's snowing this hard, but i'm not a normal person. i think i have special pervert eyes. now i know, japanese girls wear black panties when it's a fucking snow storm out there ! i don't understand them. why wear short skirts in the first place during this frozen season ?! they could froze their vagina for all i care! wait a minute. or maybe they're thinking... with the extreme cold, maybe my lady sanctuary could become tighter and... i think i should stop. i just saw random panties of random girls. get over it. i should not think about it too much. but it's hard when you have an imaginative mind such as mine.

i think i want to wear black boxers from now on.

new TV !!!

at last, i got a new hi-def tv! at 70000 yen, this sharp aquos 32inch LCD TV is the best-valued LCD TV out there; well at least in japan. i bought this bigger, better tv because i was simply bored with my 4-years-old 14inch CRT TV (image above). it was time to upgrade into something that's future proof; into the high definition broadcasting era! although i'm quite late, i'm glad i made it.

with the small space in my current room, the tv looks huge and watching it for the first time is quite overwhelming. maybe for the size of my current room, a 26inch tv would be enough; but i'm moving to a new, bigger apartment this april so i just have to be patient and be 'overwhelmed' for another month.

so like every new electronics that i have spent my (read: malaysian tax payer's) money on, i did some testing to see whether it was a good deal or not . first, watching Digital TV Broadcasting of course! the factory setting for the tv is too bright for my taste so after fine-tuning and playing around with the software settings, i was more than satisfied with the superb picture quality. comparing a normal analog broadcasting with a digital one is like comparing the ps1 to the ps3: the bump in quality is HUGE! you can even see pores and lots of other visual imperfections of tv personalities that you can't see before with a CRT (analog) TV. i think malaysian tv stations should start broadcasting HD content as soon as possible; it's amazing!

this TV produces one of the best black colour on a HD TV ever! black is very deep and ghosting is very minimal although still noticeable if you look hard enough. the factory settings tend to make the skin tones a bit reddish too, but that can be easily fixed with software settings. to make it short, the picture quality from digital broadcasting is superb and i really can't ask for more at this cheap price range. the colour is very vibrant and vivd although i think the speaker lacks the 'umph' when compared to my computer's 5.1 speakers. actually, the worst thing about this tv is the speakers, it's quite 'murky'.

next, connection to the xbox 360. although this aquos does not support 1080p, it still look brilliant and sharp at 720p. well, a human eye can't really tell the difference between 720p and 1080i when comparing between two 32 inch HDTV at those respective resolutions anyways, so it's not really a big deal. you are only going to see a significant difference when the size of the tv is 40 inch and up.

when playing video games, the most concerning aspects of a HDTV is the response time; and this TV performed quite well. of course today's HDTV still can't beat the speed of a traditional CRT TV, but it's getting better and better and this aquos has proven to be a firm proof of that progress. i tried this with the new devil may cry 4; a very fast game that rely on fast button response and i have to say, i have not noticed any lag or what so ever. brilliant! but still, it's not even close to a CRT TV response time but i'll get used to it. so for the hardcore gamers, this tv is probably not the best tv for you. try the new samsung gaming tv instead, IF you have the extra dough.

lastly, i tested the TV as a second monitor for my computer. out of the three connections, this one looks the murkier and NOT as awesome; but of course it depends on the video source itself. you won't get crystal clear video when it's a 800x600 video! HD content still looks awesome though, but not the best that i've ever seen.

at first i got a bit confused with the automotive image stretching functions the tv used to handle videos with unconventional resolutions and size ratios; but using the media player classic has proven to solve many of the head scratching problems. now i can watch lost episode 4 with a bigger picture! then i tried watching 300 (hd-dvd version) and spiderman 3 (blu-ray version) and the picture quality is just amazing. holy shit. now i want all of my movies to be in native blu-ray quality! i almost got a video orgasm.

then i tried playing computer games with the tv, but i still couldn't figure out how to bump up the resolution to 1280p. both my graphic card and the TV support resolution higher than that, but i just can't make it work. so more research to do!

all in all, this is not the best LCD HDTV out there, but it sure has the best bang for the buck. or yen. at this price range, this is the best high definiton-capable LCD HDTV anyone could get. the picture quality is superb (digital tv broadcasting being the best, computer monitor being the last of the 3) although the audio is lacking. a very good product (considering the cheap price tag) from sharp and in the end, i have become another satisfied customer.

george lucas! give us star wars in blu-ray !!!

the video below does NOT help me with my headaces

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of mini towel, panties and spinach

wow it's been a whole week without any new post. it's not that it matters but, you know. just saying stuff. i'm trying to make an opening here. which is kinda boring. yeah. em.....

so i'm going to write about what has happened recently. to start off, today i got a ' new year gift ' from the national health insurance for being healthy the whole year and not using my insurance rights. so to prize me for not using their service the whole year, they sent me a set of small hand towels and a couple of bionic soups that are environmental friendly. merry. before opening the package i was a bit skeptical. did they sent me a box of anthrax because i forget to pay them last year? was it going to be a box full of midget ninjas trying to act cute upfront but when i'm looking back, slits my throat and pulls my heart out? those little assassins! but no, i got an orange hand towel. nice. it's fluffy. i kinda like fluffy things. and mini-towels.

last night i experienced something new. i went to a 'go-kon' (合コン) with my classmates, three of them to be exact. to those who doesn't know, go-kon is a group blind date in japan and it's famous with young people trying to find a new boyfriend/girlfriend. it's usually done in a small group of people consisting of a balanced proportion of boys and girls. in case of the go-kon that i participated last night, it's 4 boys and 4 girls. and yeah, all 4 of the girls are 3rd year high school girls. firstly, i would like to clear everything up. i agreed to participate just to help my perverted classmate, murasawa to fill up the 4 boys quota. my intentions that night was NOT to find a japanese girl friend, ok? i'm just trying to help a friend and while doing that, i could have a hands-on experience with one particular japanese culture. i have enough problems and rainbow six vegas to make me look like i'm busy and occupied.

but minutes before we the 4 boys meet the 4 girls, i kinda thought this to myself: yeah it's ok if you're not doing this blind date seriously but what if all 4 of those girls, even one of them, are like, super cute and absolutely full of 'genki'ness? what if they're hot, kawaii, innocent high school girls that just wanted to ' try it ' with a foreigner like what i have read on blogs of a few and many single foreigners in japan? i mean, you have to be a dumb fool if you ignore that. suddenly i'm getting excited and i started to hope for those girls to be cuter than ayase haruka and hasegawa kyoko? what if they're this what if they're that. i learned the first rule of go-kon. NEVER. i repeat. NEVER put your hopes high. yeah we met the 4 girls right. and sadly (although i'm not supposed to be, remember i'm only filling up the quota? stupid me) all of the girls are below average. i don't believe they're real high school girls. one girl even looks like a worker at a canteen or a food court, you know what i mean? those who looks like 'obasan'.

but it was not bad. we had some good conversations about a lot of things. looks like all 4 are very close friends. all of them want to be an elementary school or a kindergarten teacher. that's nice but i don't know about the other 3, but i'm SURE that obasan would end up in a canteen serving food. NO DOUBT ABOUT IT. out of all 4, there is one girl that i would consider OK, with a flash of genki and kawaii essence in her. i don't know why, but there are a lot of young japanese girls that has an uneven set of teeth, including her. lets call her tootsie. she is the most interesting of them all, but i'm not saying that i'm interested in her. but my friend murasawa and kawajiri seems to like this girl, but they're a bit shy. kawaii ne.

so although it's merely 5 ℃ outside, tootsie wears a short mini skirt with high heels. if i was her i would surely have frozen my vagina in the first 30 minutes. got her nails done with some diamond-like thingy stuck on it and all sort of weird japanezy trend going on, i don't really understand. i have a slight amazement with what these girls could endure just for fashion and looking good. hot or cold, mini skirt forever policy is a very hard policy for them but what can be done, japanese men like to see some legs i guess. but the no 1 thing that japanese men like is none other than a big, huge, eye popping set of hooters. stupid peer pressure.

so we went to a nice japanese style restaurant where the tables are brought close to the floor but you can put your feet under the table because there were feet space dug from the floor beneath the table. so you can put your feet below or just sit on the floor. i don't really know why, but tootsie sometimes chooses to move around trying to change her sitting positions. and yeah, although with the poor lighting condition, i unintentionally saw her panties when she did that. i swear it's just coincidence. call it luck or total misfortune, i didn't mean it. it's white with some fruit images on it. strawberry, banana, pineapple, grapes and maybe some guava, i don't really see it clearly. i felt so much guilt. i felt guilty as o.j. simpson. and what's worse, she noticed that i saw it. so she asked me with a big smiling blushy face: " you saw my panties right?". i got shot in the head at that time. so i horribly and desperately tried to explain to her that i didn't mean to look at it, it's just my good reflex skills at noticing something good to look at; and i was bestowed with the marvelous skill at the age of 7. i'll talk about that later, IF i remember to write about it. i don't mean it's good to look at, it's just, you know.... she smiled back and said " it's ok. it's my fault actually, i should be more careful." and being careful is not what tootsie is good at. i started to believe that she's doing those movements on purpose. i don't really mind if a lady volunteered to show me their lovely panties, but she's still an underage school girl and i really feel weird about it. to think about it, why the hell did i agreed to participate in a go-kon with a bunch of japanese high school girls in the first place? damn, i'm a BAD person. or maybe i just have too many perverted japanese friends, like murasawa.

so tootsie wants to be a kindergarten teacher right? so from out of nowhere she forced me to listen to a children story about a family of happy fingers, that she wrote herself. the idea is simple. the thumb finger is the father, index the mother, middle the brother, ring the little sister and pinky the little brother. so little sister is jealous of little brother because every one in the family closes their eyes on every shit the little bastard do; but when ever SHE did something wrong, she got scolded. i'm not really paying attention because it's RIDICULOUS !!! even for a children's story !!! then we also played some simple children's game, some of if i'm familiar with and some of it are totally new. it was not bad at all.

the other 3 girls, i really have nothing much to say. obasan is like an obasan. she talks too fast and were using far too much touhoku accent, i don't really understand what she's trying to tell me. another girl is just too shy to talk. i gave her one sentence of question/conversation, she answered it with another sentence of conversation. and all that we talked is about the vegetable meal (spinach mixed with goma) we had in front of us. she is so small and so short. her height is just 140cm! i'm sure if i kick her HARD enough, i can make her fly 50meters away. the last girl is the most normal one. quite talkative, dresses politely and she even knows where malaysia is! everyone else have no idea where malaysia is located, but when i said it's the country between singapore and thailand, they give me this blank look telling me this: where the hell is thailand and singapore? so i ended up drawing the whole map of asia starting from japan on the dining tissue. i think japanese people, especially the young ones should really take more interest in other foreign country (especially asian), not just usa. these people should stop being such fucking ignorant idiots!

after about 4 hours of a bad, crazy and boring go-kon, we decided to end the event by exchanging our email addresses. i only exchanged my email address with tootsie and the normal girl and i had no time to ask the shy girl and obasan for theirs because i got to catch the train. when i was on the train back to sansai, my phone sings the song of pac-man, a sign of a new email. no. it's not from tootsie. it's from obasan. she asked the normal girl for my address. and she uses too much 絵文字(emoji: advanced emoticons; ideograph; pictograph). just like a normal obasan, her emojis feel forced, like she was trying hard to be like a normal teenage girl. i only replied her once. that's all. tootsie on the other hand is quite good at writing emails. and the normal girl writes to me like it's an official letter.

all in all, it was a time and energy consuming event that i don't want to participate in anymore, at least for now. i guess i'll sign off right now. i got some cleaning to do and i'm still not finished stuffing up my travel bag with stuff; because i'm going back to malaysia tomorrow afternoon yeah !!! i want to eat meat !!! hot red meat !!! i want to kill those delicious animals and eat them like a fucking cannibal hwahwhawhahahhhaa !!!

November the 11th

so i have a question: have you ever woke up in the morning, feeling the soft breeze of morning air, while your skin rejoice the warm morning sunlight, and then you said to yourself, " hey ! i wanna be a fucking veggie ! "? that happened to me last saturday ( 11th of november ).

it was like any other ordinary saturday morning, i woke up at about 9 a.m. and found out that i had dry semen in my pajama pants. man these wet dreams are crazy, i can't control them anymore! i used to knew really well how my body works sexually but this is just too much, too messy. i guess i should reduce watching documentaries about monkeys having sex. i also think that by turning into a vegetarian, i'll have more wet dreams without being messy at the end, which is nice; but i'll talk about my wet-dream-on-a-basis topic next time ladies.

so i took a nice warm bath. turned on the tv for some recent news. oh not again ! another japanese kid, this time from saitama, committed suicide because he can't stand being bullied in school. he's just 11 years old. how sad. for those who didn't know, the current ' boom ' in japan right now is helpless elementary/junior high school students committing suicide because they're being bullied at school; but the management people from the school won't acknowledge the fact that bullying did exist in their school, just for the sake of protecting the school's good image.

japan is already famous with it's weird suicidal people but kids being infected by this horrible ' virus ' is very new and worrying because japanese live longer, yet having fewer children resulting a shrinking workforce that could choke even the world's second economy power. japanese people work very hard because they think that by having wealth, they would be happy. but they are not always right. although japan is a very wealthy country, it seems that they're not so happy. social pressure seem to be the biggest problem here because the japanese really care about their image, making them always restraining themself in every action taken in their society. wait a minute, i'm kind of lost here so let's skip this topic hehe.

so noverber the 11th is also the day sony launched it's next generation game console: the ps3 in japan, going head to head with rival company microsoft with their xbox 360 and nintendo with their very different wii. ps3 with the revolutionary CELL; a super microprocessor developed in a joint effort by IBM, Sony and Toshiba ( which is ironic because Sony is in a deathmatch with Toshiba over the battle between HD-DVD and Blu-Ray ); is the giant japanese company's only hope to recover their broken image after some incidents that tarnished it's image ( laptop battery overheat resulting fire, lost in portable music market to Apple, intrusive virus-like cd-copying security etc. ).

the 20gb version of ps3 is sold at a very steep price ( at least for a game console ) at 49850 yen; and don't be surprised when i told you that the production cost of one ps3 is more that the street price, at about 70000 yen !!! although sony lost about 20000 yen every ps3 sold, they are hoping to recover the deficit with it's software sale and licensing. they did the same thing with the ps2, and they have been churning HUGE profits just after 2 years in it's life cycle and have been conquering almost 60% of the game console market. microsoft did the same thing when it launched it's first gaming console, the xbox, so that it's more competitively-priced, but failed to gain any profit and turn a red check into a blue one. but xbox is not a total failure because it has stolen at least 20% of the market share once dominated by nintendo and sony, and that's a success story for a rookie in this competitive business. and microsoft has used that market it gained during the last-gen period to set foot their next and MUCH better game console: xbox360. launching 1 year earlier than sony and nintendo, robust and proven LIVE! network of online gaming, reasonable pricing and great exclusive titles ( gears of war, halo 3 etc. ); all these positive traits from the software company has denied easy entry for sony this time around.

although ps3 is surely a bleeding edge high-tech machine that every single male ( the female gamer is increasing everyday though ) wants their hands on, sony has been messing around with their production line, unable to deliver their promise to have 2million units ready at launch. they're only launching with 100000 units in japan ( an another 400000 units for northern america come this 17th november ) ! that's 1/10 of what they have delivered during the ps2 launch, and that machine was sold out just minutes after launch ! the japanese gamers are sure desperate enough to have the ps3 at launch that they pay chinese homeless people 20000 yen to wait in line for them to buy the ps3 when the store opens at launch day.

i'm no analyst, but i predict in the end of the life cycle of these 3 game consoles, the market share this time won't be conquered by sony anymore. it's going to be like ps3 38%, xbox 32% and wii 30%. and that could be another way around because this round of console wars is very competitive and unpredictable. i'll watch with much anticipation. i want a ps3 and xbox 360 though. what about the wii ? meeh the wii is for kiddies and casual gamers. i'm a true gamer so ps3 and xbox 360 is the way to go, at least for me.

so i would like to end this today's long post. and yeah about me being vegetarian, i give up on the fourth day. it's been fun but oh my god i can't live without meat ! but to think about it again, i've done more than i thought i couldn't.